I recently saw a post over on Gala's blog with 10 questions to ask yourself to help end the year feeling positive and powerful. So I thought I'd fill it in and pop it up to finish off the end of this year.
« What were your top
❤ Getting to see Busted at Sandown. I remember being obsessed with them when I was around 15, seeing them a decade later and still knowing all the words was just fab.
❤ I snipped the hair off and dyed it Dairy Milk purple. In retrospect, it seems a silly thing to have made it into my top moments. But I'd been wanting to go purple for the longest time and when work finally caught up with the times in allowing any hair colour, I couldn't not.
❤ After being off it for a considerable amount of time I rejoined Slimming World. It can be incredibly scary going back, especially when I know I'd put back on a lot of what lost previously. But I fully plan on sticking to it now, it feels good to be back in control.
❤ Travelling to new places out of my comfort zone, with new people. Doing things I'd usually shy away from.
« What are you really glad is over? »
I think most people will be glad that the year as a whole is over and I have to say I feel the same. 2016 was not a good year, let's hope for a better year ahead.
« How are you different today than you were 365 days ago? »
I'm verging on being closer to 30 which is a scary thought. I think in some ways I've matured but still know how to have a laugh when I need to.
« Is there anything you achieved that you forgot to celebrate? »
I attended a regional pride award for work, I definitely didn't give myself enough credit for that.
« What have you changed your perspective on this year? »
One of the most noticeable changes I feel is that I've definitely readjusted my outlook on who I can trust this year. Just because people are nice to you and want to know your business, doesn't mean you should trust them with it. It's a hard lesson to learn but a valuable one.
« Who are the people that really came through for you this year? »
I've always been one of those people that have always had a very small circle of friends with a couple of besties in the mix. As always they really had my back this year especially. Being with me when I had my good moments but even more so when I had my downs. There were also a couple of people at work that were really there for me when I needed them.
« What is something you tolerated for a long time, but now you will not? »
For the majority of the year, I let people make me feel bad for being who I am. Like I was never good enough, that I should be more ~this~ or less ~that~. I've come to realise that I'm me and if people don't like it then that's their loss. It's something I plan on working on in the new year so I stop letting silly things like that get to me.
« What old beliefs did you let go of? »
I let go of the notion that I should say 'yes' to everything so as not to seem like a bad person. Regardless of it was something I wanted to do or not, I still felt I was obligated to do it. Learning to say 'no' can be so freeing. I learnt to let go of my subconscious mindset that how I was treated in the past is how I'll be treated in the future. The two things are not mutually exclusive.
« What was one thing that you found really challenging, but can now see supported your growth? »
Every now and then my depression peaks and I can't seem to see the forest for the trees, so to speak. Every time it happens I see myself as a failure but I feel like, in the long run, it's making me a stronger person.
« If you could go back in time, what would you tell yourself this time last year? »
I'd remind myself to stop focusing on the small, insignificant things. Look at the bigger picture and realise that some things just really don't matter. Eat well, sleep better and laugh more. Just look after myself properly, it's the least I deserve after all.
Here's to a better new year!
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